Dec 31, 2007 - Entering the new year with one less family member.

[Dracophile]

Hey guys, you may have noticed that I have been a little erratic online since about Christmas. I have tried keeping my personal life out of my professional life, but tonight it's just a lot to deal with. My grandmother did not live to see 2008, she passed away a couple of hours ago. All of her years of smoking finally caught up with her, I guess. :(

The last time I saw her was on Christmas day, and her dementia had gotten so bad that she couldn't remember who I was. My parents and relatives told me that it was just because I had long hair, but really, in all honestly it doesn't make me look different enough to the point where nobody will remember me. I've had long hair for a while now and I see old friends at the movie theater and they remember me even with the hair. She and I just chatted about things, mostly about how screwed up things have become (because I had work on Christmas this year). It was nice of my family to at least try and make me feel better, but it didn't help. Aside from a couple of nice presents, I have had an absolutely terrible holiday. All of this was awful to deal with, and I was looking forward to seeing a monster truck rally this weekend to take my mind off of it, but alas now I have a funeral to attend.

I am happy that my two younger brothers are still a little too young to remember her when she was actually able to do things on her own, hopefully for them it will not hurt as bad (the same was with our grandfather who passed away in 2005). For me, I just remember the days I spent over there when I was younger, when we'd play cards, rent movies, and do crosswords. I remember that she would always keep track of the numbers picked in the lottery to see if there was some kind of probability (she always picked the numbers that "are ready to come around again"). She never got to win the money that I remember she tried for for so many years. I was an idiot to think those days would last forever. Although I am glad she has moved on now, the past year has been difficult to deal with, to say the least. For her sake she's in a better place.

Anyways, I wish you all the best in 2008. My "2007 Tribute to Club Penguin" will be a little delayed this year, I'm sorry.

[TnT]

:(
I'm terribly sorry to hear that RFS.


May she rest in peace.

[Jricker_Jbam]

Im really sorry for this your loss.

My grandma will probably pass soon, too, I am sad to say. She has Alzheimer's.

Im really sorry for this your loss.

[.:Ooingo:.]

That sucks man. :( for some reason all my family members live to be in there 100s

[Lily]

I'm sorry to her that RFS. Except for my grandmother who has not spoken to my mother or my family in years, my grandparents on my dad's side are dead; they died because they were blind. May she rest in peace.

[Flame_593]

I'm sorry you lost your Grandma. I lost mine in August...in this year:(

[Sixpenguin]

I've lost both of my Grandfathers, so I know what it's like.

Stay strong, and always remember her.

[belly994]

I'm so sorry for your loss. I hope you can get through this okay. Iv'e never met both of my grandpa's, and my grandma died when I was about seven. So now I only have one grandma who is about 83.

[Nightmare68]

Im sorry bout your grandma...

[Kittens & Cats]

And next your losing Vital Viper...

[Freebee93]

Its so hard isn't it? I lost my great-grandma in 2000 i was born with quite young grandparents but she burns hard she passed all her stuff to my grandfather so whenever i got to there house i feel a burning looking at her stuff.

[Batman_Freak]

Man whenever i hear these things, i pray, because for somereason when i pray it helps me. So im going to pray for yall for a great 2008!

[Topoftheline]

I'm sorry to hear that, RFS.

[iDie]

I feel deeply for you.
-_- My mum died just recently.
I'm getting a "memory box" to out old stuff in.
Maybe you should try doing that.

[conman1001]

Rest in peace....
I remember when my great-grandmother died, I was 11, and I was baby-sitting and the people in Ireland were calling.... my dad (it was his side of the familiy,) was at a buisness meeting, and I couldn't reach my mom.

But yeah, when we had gone to Ireland a few months before, she was asking me and my sibilings who we were every 2 minutes.

[Gangsterguy3000]

Sorry RFS you have to get through it strong though.

I've lost both grandpas a grandma and a great grandma in my 13 years of life and it's hard.

[RoYaLeTTe]

How sad. I'm sorry.

I have one grandparent left, and he was taken into the hospital by ambulance this morning. He's having severe chest pains and everyone's thinking the worst... and calling ME (of all people) to find out what's going on.
Anyways, hope you feel better.

[007Honey]

It's so hard when that happens.
You know they're getting old but you're never quite prepared for it.
There's so many things about their life that you wish you had asked about, that u won't get to know now. (I'm talking about my sorrow there)
I'm so sorry for you.
Hugs.-_-

[Xx_CUrSeD bLoNdE_xX]

I'm very sorry for your loss, RFS.

My Great-Grandma died recently. Funerals are the hardest things for me to go through.

[swick]

]:Im really sorry I know how you feel my uncle died on christmas.]:

[RoYaLeTTe]

I'm very sorry for your loss, RFS.

My Great-Grandma died recently. Funerals are the hardest things for me to go through.

Um, hey now. Sorry for your loss, but you can't be takin' my color.

[Reviv]

Wow sorry to hear that RFS. She lived a good life. May her rest in peace. :)

[Laxster™]

I am so sorry RFS!
Were here for you man.
:(:(:(:( { If theres a time for a smiley limit it's right now! }

[Guardian Ou]

I am sorry to hear that RFS.

Even though she did not remember you, she is definetly looking down from heaven and wishing she could see your smiling face again. But she is happy though. For that one day too, you and your family will be reunited together... in heaven.


I was wondering why you seemed down over the Holidays, so a few days ago I asked you if anything was wrong. I am sorry to hear about this RFS. If there is anything we can do to help, let us know.

[Tetsumonchi]

Sorry for your loss, RFS. I lost my own grandmother about three years ago so I know exactly how you feel. :(

[Alenwen]

Rfs I'm so sorry to hear that! My uncle was 45 in 2004 and he passed away because of a really rare cancer. I know how you feel.*cries*

[TRi]

I know I can't comprehend your pain right now. Earth may have lost a woman, but Heaven gained a wonderful person.

Best wishes, RFS and family.

[Poisenman101]

Aww man...so sorry.... some kids never get to know their grandparents because they live so far away. Remember all the good times and fun that you had. I'm going to remember to hug my grandmother everytime I see her and be grateful that I still have her.

Have a better new year.......

[Thoko]

My grandmother died just about 1 month ago. She was only 2 days from her 89th birthday. It's really hard to accept that she's gone..

[JuneBelle]

I'm sorry to hear that. I know what you are going through. My grandfather passed away when I was 12 after years of suffering from lung cancer caused by his smoking. The last years were very painful. He was ready to go...

Even after seeing that, though, my cousin still keeps smoking.... He's really addicted. He's convinced that he won't have to face the concequences until he's good and old, thinking that he won't care by then.....

[Carljeff]

I'm very sorry to hear that-_-

I don't exactly know how you feel because none of my familly members died (And I am very thankful for that) but my dog that I had since I was born died in 2004 and he was very special to me so I know how it feels to lose someone.It hurts.But its good to let it all out, instead of keeping it inside of you.


May she Rest In Peace.

[lauren!]

aww thats really sad!!! i hope you feel better

my dog died last month :[

[phara97]

I am so sorry for your loss RFS. May she always rest in peace.
I for one have never known my grandparents on either my dad's, or mom's side -_- except my grandma on my dad's side, but she passed away when i was 4.-_-

Hope you do OK though.

[ryaniscool]

Its really hard for me to hear this. I know how you feel. One of my good friends died recently. I know the pain you are going through. May she rest in peace forever.:) Ill pray tonight for you and your family

[CopperPython]

I'm sorry to hear about that RFS. My Grandpa died a week after my birthday last year so I know how you feel. I know your feeling sad now but think about how happy she must be in that better place now.

[Ninja1]

Wow, reading that made me even feel bad about what happened with your Gradmother RFS. I'm really honestly sorry for what happened, my mom smokes too, and I try to tell her these kind of things happen when you smoke, but she just doesn't listen. Maybe if you did what I did to my friends mom, by telling her all these bad things about smoking, you could of saved a life RFS.

But that's besides the point, anyways, I've had a lot deaths in the family, mostly people who were Grand and great fathers/mothers. I have total empathy and sympathy in this situation RFS, because having to lose someone is like having your skin stripped right from you. It's painful, and your losing something. There's a metaphore I learned from my Grandfather who pasted away when I was 7. Yes, I still do remember it. Things like that I don't forget.

Anyways, I'm deaply sorry about the loss in the family, deaply sorry.

[Dannyboy]

having to lose someone is like having your skin stripped right from you. It's painful, and your losing something. There's a metaphore I learned from my Grandfather who pasted away when I was 7.

That's a similie you silly. :P

Along with the fellow armada of posts, I'm sorry to hear that. That sucks. I guess such things are bound to happen, but life goes on right?

[zmactarheel]

I feel for you RFS, in 2005 my grandmother passed as well. I am 14, and had just turned 12 two months before she passed, almost exactly two months. It had not been a great birthday, as I caught the stomach, and respiratory flu both at once. This sent me into a giant tail spin after I was better, me not wanting to get sick, scared of vomiting, etc. So I was at my friend's house, and had not been happy because I was worrying about myself. Mind you all this is taking place a month and a few weeks after my birthday. I was supposed to go to my grandmother's after my friends and I had gone to laser tag. Well, I did. My stomach acted up and was not feeling well, so I REALLY wanted to go home. I cried, and carried on for a while. A week or so later she died. I have always felt in the back of my mind that somehow her death was my fault, but I know it was the cancer she had. I am glad she didn't have to suffer anymore as she had been battling for three years. So I know what you're going through RFS.

[Plazma811]

That stinks :( I still have both of my Grandmothers but one of my Grandfathers died when I was just a little kid and my other Grandfather died a week before my little sister was born. :(
I wish you good luck to make this year seem a lot better then the last one. May your grandmother reast in peace.