..:.. Lyn-Z's Poetry Thread ..:..

[NIRVANAGIRL]

Instead of making a new thread every time I want to post a new poem of mine and cluttering up the forum with things I'm sure nearly no one reads, I decided to make a thread of my own to post all of my poetry in. :]
(Will be updated frequently.)

Poems
Internal Fire - Page 1
Living Life Backwards - Page 1
Fallen Angel - Page 1
Flight & Tone - Page 1
Wild - Page 2
Retribution - Page 2
Retrospect - Page 2
Final Hour Glass - Page 3
Sin - Page 3
Understanding - Page 3
Blood - Page 3
**** Me Up - Page 3
Behind These Walls Of Glass - Page 4
Cut It Out - Page 4
LISTEN - Page 4


Internal Fire
Numb fingers and thumbs
Grip the table top, and wilt
Like a dying flower
I wait for your return
Your ever-welcoming arms
Your words of comfort
But your presence fades
Little do I know
The rough grains of sand
That flow freely through your hourglass
Start to stick, start to cluster
They press against one another
Blocking the way down
Stopping your heart
As a shot in battle echoes
And finds your fragile flesh
What cruel fate is this
Which takes your life
Which, in time, shall take mine too
Your breath hardens into a scream
A knock is at my door
My largest fear awaits me
I answer it with foreseeing strides
A flag is handed towards my flailing hands
The words repeating endless through my mind
My husband has 'died a hero'
Fighting for those he loves
His sacrifice will be remembered
But now my body numbs as my fingers did
Numb to all pain but that internally burning fire
My breath fades away
As I fall back into nothingness
A bullet with no heroic intent strikes me
And my crimson life leaks slowly onto the carpet
Faint whispers tell those who listen my final words
- "I'm yours forever."
Hold your breath and softly say goodbye.

[Black Hawk]

Wowomg. Stop making perfect poems. They make me feel stupid.

[Dannyboy]

I have seriously just played every line in my mind. I am longing for more. Excellent.

[Topoftheline]

:O

That was beautiful. lol
Keep writing those wonderful poems! You could become famous one day. :O

[NIRVANAGIRL]

Thanks for the comments. :]


Living Life Backwards
You remain enclosed in the tight envelope of your life
Longing for detachment from that which you fear
Running away has been your escape
And pills become your safe little haven
All the drugs in this world can't save you
If you wish to leave it behind
Hold on a little longer
Take my hand and grasp it
Let your pain course through me instead
Forgive me for my imperfections
Give me a way to take everything away
Everything that pains you during the night
No matter what the cost I'll try it
Give me a way to save you
From the demons which poke at you daily
Their talons sharp and uninviting
Run away or stay the same
Make your choice
Don't linger on things you can't change
Innocence and the past mean nothing
Live your life backwards if you must
Old at the beginning and innocent at your death
Live your LIFE; it was given for a reason
And not to be wasted away on petty feelings
A penny for your thoughts? No one cares.
No one but me, in this hell you call life
In this hell we all must bear
In this hell I live with you
And I love you for it all - keep breathing & stay awake.

[NIRVANAGIRL]

Fallen Angel
Steal my breath away from me
Make my blood run from my veins
I'm a fallen angel longing for heaven
That which I have long forgotten
Stuck inside this hell of mortality
Screaming as those I love fall down
Crying as those I love tear my fragile soul
What was once strong is now easily cut
My bones are now so easily broken
Sew my heart back together with needle and thread
Make the stitches tight, and hold my hand to hide the pain
Put my shattered pieces back together
Show me what it's like to love again
Accept me with my internal and external flaws
For now I'm no longer an angel
But a mortal girl who longs for your touch
My wings have rotted away
Leaving me stranded here with nothing
Nothing to tether me to what I once knew
Be my earthly heaven so I may fly again
Make me whole once more
Will you love a fallen angel?
Or will you rip out the seams of my heart
As so many have done?
Forgive me
Accept me
Love me
For I will love you.

[digitalree]

i love the poem Fallen Angel. It rocks my socks =)

[Dannyboy]

Those are beautiful poems. I love your work. You have some serious talent, keep it up.

[Topoftheline]

Fallen Angel is my favorite out of the three. Keep it up, I love reading them.

[NIRVANAGIRL]

Flight & Tone

Follow the line
Follow the path
Follow the light
Submit to the wrath

Leave your fears home
Leave them to burn
Give them away
Sell them a tone

Let your eyes open
Or claw your eyes out
It's one and the same
When you have mind of doubt

I hear myself scream
I hear the glass break
What am I doing?
Is all of this fake?

Let it all out
Wipe the blood from your skin
Release all the pain
Get rid of the sin.

[Dannyboy]

That was an excellent poem, NG. And hey, the rhyming is cool. Glad to see you're still writing these.

[NIRVANAGIRL]

Thanks. Yeah, I got a bit sidetracked and didn't have the time to write poems - I've been working a bit on a new story (not posted on here.. yet) and so I've been devoting all my time to that lately.

[NIRVANAGIRL]

Wild
Taste the hatred and hear the screams
Call upon the storm to envelope your mind
Let go of all past pretense and false hope
Let yourself drown in reality
Your lungs will be screaming for imaginative thought
Scream until your throat starts to bleed
The charred smiles of the ignorant
Will look upon you and bow
Run away from this hell
Let your true self blend into the night
Allow yourself to surrender to more primitive feeling
Even if it kills you in the way of the change
The end result makes all that follows worth your while
Run through the forest and the autumn leaves
Look up at the eyes of the truth as you follow the path
Don't try to resist what your inner soul longs for
Let yourself go wild.

[Hawkstar]

Your poetry is amazing! I am not that good at writing poems so...

I hope you write more! I love your writing!

[Rod Rego]

Love it! I got shivers reading some of them. You're a really great writer!

Can't wait to read more.
:)

[NIRVANAGIRL]

Thanks, both of you. =]

Retribution
Look into my bleeding eye
And name off the colors you see within
Perhaps red, for the anger that burns?
Maybe blue, for the pain withheld?
Then green, for the love of the creature inside me
And yellow, for the thrilling rush of the kill
Purple shows my passion
Orange shows my flaming hate
All these colors make up one simple person
I blink, and blood runs down my pale cheek
A single line of pain, dripping off my chin
A confused tear, which knows not what to be
A handful of people can end the bleeding
My screaming fate of clawing redemption
I’m not insane, I’m not insane…
What if God doesn’t exist?
Who will save us from our hatred?
When you die do you think you go to heaven?
No… The crazy butler says.
You come to us.

[Black Hawk]

Awesome. It's cool that you can let your emotions and thoughts pour into your writing that well.

[Lilly 309]

Omg! You are amazing! I have a great idea for you! You should come out with a poetry book like say every other week? You could share your poems with the forums and I think everyone would absolutely love it!:)

[NIRVANAGIRL]

Thanks. And I'll think about that, Lilly. ;]

Retrospect
My tears and screams go unnoticed by the world above me
My hands, they bleed from pounding on the wood overhead
Oh, what I would give for a glass of water
To pour over my frantic body to make myself awaken
This nightmare is real, it's all around
Enclosed in a box, concealed underground
Everything is so dark in this hole
As I cry, I can't be sure what runs down my face
Is it a mere line of tears, or something more?
The realization of my impending death
Causes me to scream aloud
Who the hell would do this?
Here I am, dear reader
Lying helpless in my premature coffin
The smooth velvet carressing my skin
Does nothing to calm my nerves or panic
What would you do, my dear reader?
Would you scream and cry as I do now?
How would you feel, my dear reader?
Helpless and frantic, as I do now?
Or would you simply shut your eyes...
And slowly drift off into a precious dream...
To stay there forever,
As the air in the coffin grows stale?

[Lilly 309]

You've done it again. I give it a perfect score of 10/10! :)

[Black Hawk]

That one scared me, so yeah. You're doing good. xP

[Rod Rego]

Love the two new ones. Can't wait for more! : )

[NIRVANAGIRL]

Final Hour Glass
Struggle and strife which cannot be withheld
Dying in pain, only a striving attempt to survive
Imagine what would run through your mind
Being told how long you have to live
The presumed date of your death revealed
The hair on your head, falling out effortlessly
Due to the help you seek, to no avail
You tell your family to come closer to the bed where you lie
"Bury me in my favorite color."
Slowly, you realize how precious life is
As you come to terms with the fact
That you have limited time to savor the taste
Sunlight feels warmer on your pale skin
And every sense you come into contact with
Is that of a [b][color=red]- PLEASE REPORT ME FOR SWEARING!!! -[/color][/b][b][color=red]- PLEASE REPORT ME FOR SWEARING!!! -[/color][/b][b][color=red]- PLEASE REPORT ME FOR SWEARING!!! -[/color][/b][b][color=red]- PLEASE REPORT ME FOR SWEARING!!! -[/color][/b][b][color=red]- PLEASE REPORT ME FOR SWEARING!!! -[/color][/b]ling sensation
Reminding you...
You cannot live forever
Your hands grip the edge of the arm rests on your chair
Pressing as hard as they can
So they can feel while they are still able
Throw your head back
Trace the bend in your spine
One last deep breath for the plunge
Out of valuable time.

[Black Hawk]

Cancer sucks. D: My friend had a shirt that said that. :]

[NIRVANAGIRL]

Sin
I scream for you
The carpet stains
Your words are true
I'm wrought with pain

The cut runs deep
You let it flow
As blood does seep
Don't let it show

The room grows still
My mind falls cold
Sin's had it's fill
The price is told

I need you here
So hold on tight
I'll take your fear
You're out of sight.

---

Understanding
This pale life in which we live
The knife & the victim
The razor at fault
The misunderstood promise that could never be kept
Know that the pain was directed at me
Love is not a strong enough word
To describe the bond
Betrayment is not in my nature
But apparently it's been added through the years
Forgive me; hold on to me; accept me.
For I shall never let go.

[NIRVANAGIRL]

Blood
Every tear tells a story
At least that’s what they say
But I have a feeling
That if every drop of shed blood was asked
It would have more of a tale
The people that caused it
The tears that were shed because of it
The look upon the faces of the children
As the razor gently slit their skin
But what would be the point of asking for all these tales?
None of us care.
None of us speak.
We wouldn’t ask the blood if we could.
Nor the tears.
Because we don’t ask the people
Who could really share the stories.
We could all care less.
Consumed by our own meaningless existence
We never check upon anyone else.
Stranger or enemy.
Selfish.
Stupid.
Disturbing.

[NIRVANAGIRL]

**** Me Up
So many feelings
So little time
Master comprimise
Does ignorance outweigh pain?
Does hatred outweigh love?
Nail my wrists and ankles
To a bloody cross
Make me scream and make me cry
You won't have a loss
Everything slowly darkens
Everything slowly slips away
Carve my flesh from my bone
Drink my blood and crack the stone
Insanity compells you as it does me
Poison pulses through my veins
Tear the skin
Break the bone
Kill me now
Black my soul.

[Rod Rego]

Will you marry me?

Lol, jk. But seriously, your poetry is AMAZING. You're really inspiring; I've started to write poetry myself, because of you.

Can't wait for more!!

[Lilly 309]

:O Wow, this is amazing! You are a great poet! I can't wait until you write more!

[squigglez3]

:O:O:O:O I won't do anymore :O's but WOW. You are a great poet. You have a girft. I'm astounded. Your poetry is amazing. I am dumbfounded. Wow. All I can say is WOW.

[NIRVANAGIRL]

Thank you. =]

Behind These Walls Of Glass
Hear I stand
Side by side
Behind these walls of glass
Waiting for everything
To let go
To collapse
Feeling these emotions
Screaming for release
Take me out of this place
Rid me of my fears and sin
Before the sun shall rise
And that which keeps my heart beating
Shall be stole away
That thumping in my chest shall still
And finally I'll be free
Savor every rain drop fallen
Savor every breath and touch
Soon all that will perish
Soon all that will fade and wilt in memory
My companions stand beside me
Looking through the transparent prison
Watching every other happy soul
Living life in unison
While we slave away in our petty differences
Fighting and grieving together
Killing ourselves bit by bit
Until we fall down upon the cold earth
If only we could jump over these walls
And join those which seem to be carefree
Those which seem blissful
And perfect to those looking in on them
One day ahead
Someone shall take a rock to the glass walls
Which we hide behind daily
Giving us freedom and ridding us of our shelter
Giving us hope and thrusting us forward
You, dear reader, yes you
You, reading this petty poem
Bare the rock in hand
And throw it swiftly
Free us all of this glass prison
Please, dear reader...
Free us all...

[squigglez3]

*Opens mouth* Wow. The only thing is, they are all sadish-like poems. Could you possibly write a happier poem?

[NIRVANAGIRL]

*Opens mouth* Wow. The only thing is, they are all sadish-like poems. Could you possibly write a happier poem?

Well, I'm clinically depressed and naturally a dark person, so I naturally write darker things.

[NIRVANAGIRL]

Cut It Out
Evil come
Evil go
Hide your eyes
Hear the notes
Of the pained
Of the weak
Of those who seem to seek
All the noise
All the attention
Broken glass
Bleeding feet
Cut thy skin
Break the firm
Let it run
Crimson sun
Let me scream
Please hear me out
Pleading resistance
Begging shout
Free me now
Please let go
If I die
It's all my fault
I feel such things
I get confused
But pain is stable
And for a moment
One icy moment...
I feel human
And the fog is lifted
From my sight
And when the mist
Descends once more
I feel uplifted
But strangely poor
Although I long
For one more blade
It would do nothing
And would be selfish
Unbroken thoughts
Living in my mind
I can't escape
I might die here
In my head
My mind bleeds
From all the confusion
Screams for release
So cut my legs
Cut my arms
Remove my head
Remove my pain
Help me, please
Escape this hell.

[Jojobaba]

AHH!! I might get nightmares after reading your poems and seeing your avatar... Please change your avatar, its freaking me out

[NIRVANAGIRL]

AHH!! I might get nightmares after reading your poems and seeing your avatar... Please change your avatar, its freaking me out

Freedom of speech my friend. Unless the moderators see it fit to be taken off, which I don't think they do seeing as long as I've had it, you're out of luck. Just cuddle close to your Carebear and I'm sure you'll be fine.

[NIRVANAGIRL]

LISTEN
Pen in hand
All I've got
Take the sin
All for nothing
Kill the dead
Live the light
Cut it out
Let it bleed
See the pain
Sow the seed
Sharpened curve
Dulled point
Smile in a way
That makes them all believe
Don't let them inside
Don't let them be pained
Keep it inside
Let it eat away
Mention blood
I'll go insane
Mention death
I'll be restrained
Needles poke gently
Through thy flesh
Birthing freckles
That run away
Leaving trails
Leaving proof
Wipe it clean
Let it stop
Then do it again
It's a circle
Of violent sin
Don't look in thy eyes
You'll see pained things
You won't like the view
So run away like the rest
And leave those eyes
To survey the world
In which it cries
In which it burns
It being yourself
World being mind
Take it away
Leave it something to find
A hint of life
A painting of death
Why is your skin purple?
Why does it look sad?
Because you don't care for it
Because you've done it wrong
Because you've cut it up again
Because you've been selfish again
Stop it
Stop all of it
There are better ways to get rid of the pain
But when you find them please tell me
I need the path as much as you do
My smile begins to fade
My toes are turning black
My skin is getting angry
From all these self attacks
Liars don't work well with me
Liars burn in my personal hell
Lie to me and lie to yourself
I am nothing more than a simple figment
A simple picture in your mind
I'm not really here at all
Not at all
I'm only playing games with you
Making you second guess everything
Making you be a human being
Making you think when all you want to do is die
Take a step back from the window
And see the panes of glass shine in reflecting light
There's more to this than you currently understand
More than just you
More than just pain
More than just rainy days
Candles burn in churches
Mourning those lost to darkness
Yet you think you have the right
To take your own candle
And set it aflame?
No. You do not.
Leave the match where it lie
Let someone else do the bidding
You don't hold your fate like you believe
So just drop everything and do your best
ARE YOU LISTENING YET?
Heed the advice you hear
Listen with not only your ears
Listen with every inch of your being
Hear other's lives in bold & black
Hear something other than yourself
DO YOU HEAR WHAT I'M SAYING?
DO YOU GET THE POINT?
LISTEN WITH EVERYTHING YOU'VE GOT
LISTEN, FOR GOD'S SAKE
Listen, and hear.

[Poetic]

DO YOU WANNA BRING TEARS BACK?


Wowzers! You've gotten WAY better at poetry. Those poems are smexy!

Freedom of speech my friend. Unless the moderators see it fit to be taken off, which I don't think they do seeing as long as I've had it, you're out of luck. Just cuddle close to your Carebear and I'm sure you'll be fine.

That is sig worthy!

I need a more disturbing avatar...

Hmm...

I've done some sketches lately...

This should be fun.

:scootz: